These cowards can’t keep us down <3 This is a wonderful city with amazing people, and I’m proud to call it my second home.
It is my seventh and final day of journaling, and I realized that it’s too much work to blog when I have nothing real to say haha BUT, I remembered just how much it helps to blog about things that make me upset, even if most of those posts are on private. Either way, today was good — walked to rehearsal in the snow… again… (I swear winter storms are becoming a Sunday rehearsal tradition -.- ) and now doing French because I did enough math and physics last night to justify focusing on my very much neglected fourth class(: Alors, il faut vous quitter, mes amis. Je vous aime, et merci pour supporter mes postes denués de sens. À la prochaine ! Restez heureux !
Another uneventful Saturday, minus the fact that we spent most of the day together as a quadfecta hahahaha (gosh, these losers might as well just transfer to Eliot). But whatever, I did some physics, got frustrated with some math, and pretty much just had a chill day(: Found out that pretty much all my friends are leaving for spring break, but at least one of my blockmates is staying with me :D (kk <3) A’ight, I gotta get back to fighting with some complex eigenvalues. PEACE.
Another completely uneventful day, except for the fact that I finally went to my Friday classes for the first time in three weeks haha
I have just seriously been in the best of mood of the semester since last night though, because I got the best care package in the world from my mom. It wasn’t even because it had a teddy bear in it (which was fucking AWESOME. He’s my new best friend <3), I just feel like I needed to be reminded that no matter how stressed I feel here, I’ll always have someone who truly, unconditionally loves me back home. I don’t know, just something about the gesture seriously made me the happiest I’ve been in weeks, which made me realize just how unhappy i’d been throughout the semester. I keep reading about all the mental health issues people struggle with here, and how we have such a disproportionately high level of depression and suicides, and I guess there’s something to that. There’s just something about the atmosphere that leaves most of us in a constant state of stress and exhaustion, and we don’t realize it until we get an inexpensive, vacuum-sealed, love-infused stuffed toy in the mail that brings back reminds us what it feels like to be loved and to take joy in the simple things in life.
I’m so obsessed with this no joke I reblog it every time I see it.
this makes my stomach drops
only just understood this and woah it scares me
woah i love this
No, I didn’t skip a day. Yesterday’s was just private haha I’M STILL IN THE GAME, YO.
But anyways, today was just another Thursday where I have 2 hours free total between 10AM and 9PM. Like, wut. Ugh.
But on the bright side, lab was lasers today! If you’re gonna have three hours of lab, might as well make it totally kickass, right? Have I mentioned just how cool physics is? Lasers. Yeah. Be jealous.
But then in Noteables I chickened out of auditioning for a solo again. I should really probably work on my speaking (singing?) anxiety. But at least the people who got the solos were seriously UH-MAZING. If I’m too chicken to try to get it, I’m happy that deserving people get it instead(:
K, that was my day. I’m tired now, and even though I really should be productive, I think I’m just gonna veg and watch hulu or browse tumblr or rot on facebook or (gasp!) read the news ahahaha ‘Night, guys <3 À demain~
So today was pretty much just one giant pset. Any by one I mean two. That are both due in 9.5 hours. Yikes.
Sometimes I wonder what life would be like if I hadn’t picked one of the hardest concentrations at the college (folk and myth? It’s a plan.), but then I realize that I wouldn’t have it any other way. Bring on the 3D phase portraits and continuum limits! I’m a techie through and through, sleep deprivation and all.